Why

Why? Why do thoughts of you crowd my mind every waking hour, minute, second of the day? Why is it that i have to make myself busy to not think about you? Why do i think about you? Can you leave me alone for just one day? Why Can i not close my eyes without pictures of you, me, us crossing my mind? Why can't you leave me alone? Why must you be so funny that i laugh constantly not only when I am with you but when I talk to you? Why are you so easy to talk to? I feel like I could tell you i'm an alien or something and there would be no judgement. I'm tired of waiting. I'm tired of not knowing. I'm a control freak and I'm tired of not knowing....Tired of being scared

Amanda♥