The Perfect Date

I always preach about a southern gentleman. I actually had the opportunity to date one, but passed it up. He was by all means a perfect catch. He is a co-owner of a company, works and goes to school at the same time. He actually enjoys going to church and feels lost on Sundays when he is unable to make it to church. He enjoys spending time with his family and many of the other things that i also enjoy. BUT ( yes there always has to be a but) I have no feelings for him other than friendship. I tried I really really tried. I wanted to make it work. i wanted to be your girl I wanted to talk to you every night on the phone. i wanted to hang out every possible chance. i wanted all of this, but it never came. I prayed  and begged God for him to send the feelings, but they were never received. And I did you wrong by "falling" for your best friend. And I got a dose of my own medicine. Because it just showed me how great of a guy you truly are. Anyone to put up with him for so many years deserves the Best Friend Award. Just Please Know that I truly did try. Know that it really made me feel special when you were so worried when i was in the hospital. I really loved waking up to texts from you and saying my last Good-Night to you. Just know that I tried, i tried harder than anyone has ever tried before to make the feelings be there. But yet, they are not there. They never came.You were so sweet and asked to hold my hand and showed real respect, yet I couldn't make the feelings be there. And for that I truly am sorry. 

♥Amanda