The Girl

Once Upon A time there was a girl. This girl was fun loving, beautiful, she found hope in many things, she thrived on the hope of a better tomorrow, yet few really understood this girl to her capacity. The ones who did, did. And the ones who didn't thought they did. She was fun to be around always able to be a comforter at her weakest moment. She now thrives on the hope of going back to who she use to be...did she loose herself or simply take a detour? She wants to be the happy girl again, the girl that never let anything get to her, the girl that always wondered how people could actually be depressed when they had so much to thank God for, the girl who doesn't cry for no apparent reason, the girl who doesn't keep secrets, the girl who didn't fall for a stupid boy, the girl who was always positive never negative, the girl who always found the good in a bad situation, the girl who was a fighter, the girl who stood up for her beliefs instead of floating hopelessly on an inter tube in the middle of the ocean.
Amanda ♥

Just A Thought

The day has been filled with moments of Thinking

Thinking of The One who Hurt me 

Thinking of My Future

Thinking of What Does Loving someone really mean

Thinking of The Friend thats always too Busy

Thinking of The Guy " I'm Suppose to End up with" 

Thinking That These Shoes Really Hurt My feet

Thinking

Thinking

Thinking

Thinking So much that my mind became a black hole of Chaos

Thinking That if these four Years were over maybe I could Enjoy Life Really

Thinking That if that Someone came into my Life today would I know it, would i welcome them with open arms or turn them away with my shy exterior. 

Thinking That Maybe my friends really don't understand the Me that God does

Thinking Why Can I say so much behind a Computer or Phone but in person I Run

Thinking Why do guys usually run when things get complicated

Thinking Why He can't accept me for who I am...Why was I not good enough

Thinking Will this class Ever be over

Thinking

Thinking

Thinking 

Thinking Until all these thoughts became a jumbled mess and I no longer knew what was going on, my mind had been taken over, I was no longer in control my mind was...and It was going into one thousands different directions and I didn't know which way to Run.
Amanda ♥

The Meaning of Beautiful

Why do we spend our whole lives looking for great love? Sometimes it's right in front of our faces, but usually love finds us when we least expect it. Sometimes we find love in an old friend, sometimes we find love on an elevator, or a coffee shop, or in class next to you, or on a train, or crowded street, or in a taxi, or randomly walking around in a crowded wall. When I find this great love...or more like when this great love  finds me, I want it to be a crazy thing. Like the whole world stops turning for that split second when our eyes meet. Sometimes I just want someone to show me some attention, just call me beautiful, just tell me that I am appreciated, and loved. Yes, I hear these comments numerous times coming from friends and family members but there is just more meaning behind it if it comes out of the mouth of a guy and if they truly mean it. Its magical. I once thought that one certain person would ruin the word beautiful for me because they used it time and time again and the word lost its meaning. I want my great love to be my only love. I want to only fall in love once. When I finally find this great love I want him to be able to receive my whole heart. I want my great love to be a beautiful love. 

Amanda♥

Random Ramblings

I'm one of those people who cant stand to be alone yet thats when i have the most relaxing time. i would rather hang out with one or two close friends than go to some shin dig with a lot of people. You can read my thoughts if you look me in my eyes. i show my emotion like its on the big screen yet you will never see me cry. I don't curse I find it extremely unladylike. I feel sorry for people that are oblivious. i do my best thinking in the shower in bed or while driving all of which make me scramble for pen and paper. i have a serious problem trusting guys. Earning my trust is truly an understatement but if you have it, it takes a lot for you to lose. I have given numerous second and third chances to a guy who probably didn't deserve the first. I will believe that all guys are the same until one comes along that proves me wrong. God will truly do something amazing if you let him...just saying. I am more than a kid at heart...its more like it has been written on my soul. i enjoy the simple things like playing in the rain and coloring in a coloring book. I am very naive and try to look for the bright side in every situation which can get annoying. I love to laugh i believe it is the best workout and it cures all pain. Besides God my family and close friends are my support system. Theres no telling where i would be without the people that support my every decision whether it be right or wrong. Saying i love my parents is like saying i just like music. i truly do not have the words to even being to describe the love and appreciation i have towards them. i am truly awestruck at how two people could possibly be so giving and loving. i would be a lucky girl to find a man that is half the man my daddy is and to turn out half the woman my mother is. The greatest gift i have ever been given is my salvation from spending eternity in hell. I don't deserve it at all but i guess that's how gifts go...all you have to do is receive it. Music is a lovely thing in my life. i cold not make it through college without it. bad day...sad songs...good day...happy songs...and if i am feeling adventurous i expand my music library, but i always come back to my southern roots. My most favorite day of college so far would be the day that my favorite English professor told me i was a writer. I love to read like its going out of style. The sad thing is that reading is going out of style. =/
Amanda♥

Someone To Be

Be Unique
Be Grateful
Be Yourself
Be Happy
Be Thankful
Be Courageous
Be Compassionate
Be Honest
Be crazy
Be good
Be exciting
Be Interesting
Be funny
Be beautiful
Be prepared
Be Kind
Be Unpredictable
Be Daring
Be responsible
Be accepting
Be country
Be loyal
Be faithful
Be well read
Be Loving
Be educated
Be organized
Be presentable
Be creative
Be spontaneous
Be responsive
Be Imaginative
Be musical
Be careful
Be clean
Be quiet
Be thought provoking
Be Loud
Be trustworthy
Be serious
Be polite
Be Prideful
Be humble
Be Dangerous
Be Different
Be Confident
Be Imaginative
Be Comfortable
Be Inspiring
Be Inspired
Be Colorful
Be Memorable
Be Silly
BE YOU
 Amanda♥

This Is Me

You should probably know a little bit about me....My name is Amanda Joyce. I left out my last name cause it won't forever be the same. I'm 18 and one of the few people that love their middle name. I have this crazy love for a thing called baseball. I guess because i grew up around it. If you make me cry you better run. I am not a nerd but anything less than perfect is unacceptable. I like to read and I have a freckle in my right eye. Like I said i'm only 18 and still have a whole lot to learn. But along my journey I have learned a few things. First thing first, family is very important. They are always there no matter how much you screw up. I don't need a guy to define who I am but having one is always nice. Don't try to impress anyone live for you and you alone. I'm not your typical teenage girl. I like mud and dirt. I love adventures, fore wheelers, riding the motorcycle, huntin, fishin, and going to the race. Adrenaline rushes are cool. I'm a tee shirt and jeans kinda girl. I lose myself in music. The lyrics take me to another world. I am passionate for kids. I love being around them. My Goal in life is to be an inspiring teacher and inspire my kids to be who they are and not be ashamed of themselves or what they believe in and to teach them how important an education really is. I'm laid back and not high maintenance at all. Roses are nice but daisies will do. I live in the small town of Byron and go to an even smaller church. Knowing everyone is nice but it can cause problems also. I am a God fearing disciple for Christ. My mom is my best friend. I Should have grown up in the antebellum south. I am very courteous and kind but I ain't afraid to call it like I see it. I can't say i have ever been in love or heartbroken, but i have been in deep like and admiration. I have had the chance to learn that settling is unacceptable and that I want my first love to be my last. For those who entered my life, for those who stayed, and those who left, you have all taught me something with out relationship and my life would not be what is it today without your impact on my life. So thank you, cause I am truly enjoying every bit of the ups and downs God is throwing my way
Amanda♥